I was counting on forever

by Nicole Two Hearts

 

For Ashley Marie Harder

 

 

You promised me forever and I promised you the same.

You were my best friend and I was yours.

I told you my secrets and you told me yours.

Never lying or fighting we always got along.

You meant the world to me and I meant the world to you.

Almost burning your house down we rushed to get help.

We wanted to grow up together and get married on the same day and live in the same house.

We laughed and giggled and smiled all day long.

We rode the bus and went to school together.

We slowly grew apart.

You went in to high school and I was still in elementary school.

You became beautiful and popular and I was not.

I got into high school the next year and you got into a higher grade.

Soon, we sat together at lunch but still I felt a void.

But still we were friends and I still loved you.

Then that day, I walked by you and you looked at me and smiled.

You turned around and hugged me and told me you loved me.

I hugged you back and told you the same.

Looking back at you I told you I would see you on Monday and you told me the same.

I never thought anything bad would happen to you.

But it did.

I was at home on Sunday, two days after Friday, when I was told the news.

My heart stopped beating, my stomach dropped, and I couldn't breathe.

You were in an accident and you were gone.

You left me and you had promised me forever.

I couldn't believe it.

I was hoping this was wrong, but it wasn't.

Going back to school the next fateful morning, I dreaded the worst.

It was true.

But why did you have to go?

I went to your funeral, I didn't cry.

As I passed your casket I reached out and touched it, just ever so slightly.

I cried for you no more.

All I do now is mourn for you.

I was told the truth.

That God needed another angel and you were the next in line.

I always knew you were special.

I miss you Ashley Marie and I never stop thinking of you.